Wednesday, August 08, 2007
I have nothing much to do except studying nowadays, since the promos are coming and I DON'T WANT to get retained...so, here I am, reminicising of my childhood...
I cycled down the staircase. I really did. I remembered I was playing alone and sitting on my tricycle at home (3rd storey). Maybe 'cos I was small and did not have much common sense, I went down the stairs USING THE TRICYCLE. Luckily, my maid caught me just in time and I was uninjured >< Next memory: I was begging for a cup of cup noodle at night. My maid then left the cup noodle, with hot water in the cup, on top of a surface (can't remember already). I reached up for the noodle and...the cup noodle spilled. OUCH, it was boiling water. Late at night, my mother brought me to the hospital, EMERGENCY!!! =,= wheax, childhood disaster. Another story...outside my church at Indo, there are some man selling various kinds of things, even animals and toys. My bro often bought snails as pets, all those snails with paper carriages and all those. Now thinking about it might seem cruel, the snails will get killed within 1 week. HAHAX, but my bro and I enjoyed playing with the snails back then... ^^. Then, another time, he bought baby chicks and birds. See, many types of animals have "resided" in my house before. The strangest animal he bought: an OWL!!! It was so noisy at night, practically hooting throghout the whole night. The whole house can't get to sleep 'cos of that owl...after a few days, my mum can't stand the owl already. She gave it to my neighbour...who in turn gave it to his friend...blablabla...and the cycle continues. Pitiful owl... *,* enough about the past...i miss my childhood ALOT, but I still gotta move on. Thinking of which, I think I have become much more mature, much more stronger than what I was a few months ago. My friend's ordeal has made me realise how good my parents are and that we must treasure every opportunity I have. Also, I realised that God is faithful. My friend said thru her sobs that "I hope I am God's sheep. If lost, he will find me, and he will even carry me. Unlike my parents, who will scold me if I got lost". GOD IS GOOD! ^^, but don't get me wrong. Parents are NOT BAD, they want the best out of their children. My mum often says: "even tigers and lions love their cubs and never eat their cubs". YEAH! I agree with you. That is why I called my mum and dad yesterday to tell them that I love them, and how much I treasure them. I guess they were shocked. 17 years, the first time I said it to them. But I don't care. Even if I were to die now, I won't regret for not saying "I love you" to my parents.
The only thing I regret...I don't have the courage to admit it to you...iloveyou ***** ...nvm, cya soon! ^^, take care
I also realised that life is so precious, especially when there is love. Recently, a man/woman commited suicide at Tampines MRT. When I found out about that, I was practically screaming in my head:"SILLY!!!Life is so precious. How can you waste it? Don't you know how many patients are fighting hard to live on? How many people are in worse state than you? Have you got nobody to love you?". One thing I am sure of, he/she don't believe in Christ. 'Cos if he/she is a believer, he/she will not choose to end their lives. I began thinking...I would have done it too, it was just so close...if not for her, I would not be living now and realise how beautiful life is, how good god is, and I wouldn't have met him either.
Oh ya, my ambition was rekindled. I wanna be a doctor (same ambition as before, but different missions). I aspire to be a doctor to help the poor children. After the GP topic on poverty, I just realised how fortunate I am. Proper house, protective parents, and don't have to suffer some more. Maybe I should share the joy with some other people.
Thinking of which, I think that my parents are EXTREMELY PROTECTIVE of me. At Indo, I practically almost never go anywhere without any adults. Even at the mall, I will be with my bro. And at least 1 adult will be in the same mall as me. Nope, never went shopping with friends either at Indo. HAHAX, some people might think that my life is so "caged". But I am satisfied. My parents care about me. They are so defensive of me. I feel so safe inside my safety zone. Maybe that's why I don't like living in Singapore. Yeah, more freedom, but less sense of security. Most of the time, I am left to fight on my own. That feeling of insecurity...Sigh...But actually, I am growing happier and happier. Well, maybe I really have grown up, from being my mother's little girl to being my mother's big girl, from being my father's little angel cum girl to being...my father's little angel cum girl. HAHAZ, nothing have changed. I am happy ^^, thanks all the people in my life...
luvangel2003 believed today at 10:18 PM
