i love u so much that i hate you
i want you to live so much that i want you to die
i hurt so much that sometimes,i dont wish to think anymore
seeing u getting weaker n weaker...have u ever imagined how horrible i felt?it is e worst feeling. i dont know what is e cause of ur hopelessness,yet i feel strangely guilty
i lay awake at nights thinking about you. worry for fear of a single msg to hear u worsening. i truly care. y do u keep pushing me away? hasnt these five years, i proved tat i wanna stand by u.to rlly hold u n make u forget everything that hurts u. bt y wont u let me?
i <3 u...i rlly do.
luvangel2003 believed today at 3:22 AM
really...isn't it selfish to sustain somebody's life for your own sake? if we do not have the right to make someone die, what right do we have to keep someone living? i know that life should be filled with hope and vision for the future. but what if there is no more? isn't death a part of god's plan in life?
i do not want to blame you anymore. i just blame myself at how long i take to understand the fact. i will never fully be able to let you go. i won't say that i will be able to bear it. i don't know yet how i am going to come face to face with that. tell me, so that i will be able to prepare for it. yet i know i am never ready for it. but these three remains: faith hope and love. and the greatest of these is love. i love you <3
luvangel2003 believed today at 8:56 PM
feeling totally sick. yet have to study for exam! totally no mood -,-
but currently life is good. beside some things that i can handle for now, everything else seems to be in place.
have you ever run in a way that you feel that you are flying?
have you ever chased a rainbow and to see what is on the other side of it?
have you ever loved someone till you are even prepared to give him/her up for his/her happiness?
have you ever stood and appreciated the clouds among the blue sky?
have you ever smiled at a pair of butterflies flying past?
i did. i feel contented. have you?
luvangel2003 believed today at 3:18 AM
jie jz get better. i dont know what i can do w/o u. plz jie...if u dont wanna do it for urself, then do it for me. cos life w/o u is hell
luvangel2003 believed today at 10:04 PM
cos i nid a guiding hand that is gentle enough to accept me, yet firm enough to argue with me if i stray away
luvangel2003 believed today at 7:37 PM
