Sunday, November 01, 2009
you are precious to me. i cant bear to lose you, really. constant companionship for 2 odd years? how can you think that i would not be impacted if you are gone? i do treasure you. just the extent of it has changed. its time for us to let go. hmmm you might say that i am heartless, forgetting our memories in such a short span of time. i havent. you know how hard has it been for me to go into the movies, without your shoulders as my headrest? how do you expect me to drink starbucks without remembering your smiles and the green jokes? and everytime i see the red line on mrt, i will without fail reminicise all the long journeys we shared. my life does indeed felt empty at first without you. you had almost been my constant 24/7 companion. whatever things that are on your schedule are less important than me. i know. but we must learn to move on. its not you only, remember? the good memories just keeps resurfacing too. i wish you all the best, really. i dont know if i am ready for a r/ship right now. but i will try. wont you try too, at least? this is my first attempt to forget you. wont you take this step with me?
losing a friend's friend, who is almost a stranger...its already hard enough for me. i do think about his death very often nowadays. i accept his death, yes. but its just hard. i dont know...i admit, losing you will be very painful. maybe it would kill me. so please please dont do anything weird.
wish you all the best. take care...you r still bb to cencen. just the importance has shifted. to a brotherly kind of love. will you remember that, please? :)
and please...if you made up your mind about this, i really dont mind astro boy. just remind me not to let my head fall back on your shoulders....
luvangel2003 believed today at 1:40 AM
