many times, people say that we must not be swept by the current. instead, we must develop our muscles and swim against it. but wont that be too draining, too hurting? what can we do about the circumstances around us? nothing, sadly to say.

looking at other people family, i feel pangs of jealousy. at least during this chinese new year period, when they are re united. i still have to wait a loooongggg way till xmas i guess, which is still 10 months+ away. that is long!

doing the best thing may not mean doing the right thing. i am going to do things my best. as long as i care, i will try my hardest to do keep you from breaking. it may not be right. but i believe its for the best. i am not giving up on you, unless you give me a good reason for it.

gambatteh girl!!!